its my life story

a promise.

19 January 2011 @ 5:48 PM

i laugh,i giggle,i smile.
thats the best i can do to keep my day going.
things wsnt tht good this few days.
sometimes, ppl are just selfish. ya,to the extend they
dont even try to think abt oth's feelings but to think abt theirs.
scared that their good name got tarnished just because of
other person. yes,you can predict who im talking about.
obviously me right? hah!
idk how long i can keep myself strong and go through all
this shits of life. problem after another.
not a problem actually. but, im terribly hurt
when your own loved ones put all the blame on you
cause they dont wna their name got tarnished.
but never even try to understand the situation,
never try to understand how long ive tried to
get hang of all this shits. no,you dont. you always
compare me to your past history of live.
i know. yours was way disastrous. but hey!
one thing you have to know.
My generation isnt the same as yours now.
you cant bloody expect me to be like you.
cause im aint you.
and i can never ever be like you.
i might be the most stubborn one among the other three.
but im still a human being.
my heart is screaming out loud shouting for help,
shouting for some sympathy,some love,some fairness,
and everything that can make this heart at ease.
but i dint get that for long.
ive been struggling so hard. so hard that only tears
can explain the pain in my heart is like.
i hate to cry. im a strong girl. im not a cry baby.
im not going to cry anymore.
maybe its my faith to be like this.
a promise to myself, not to rely SO MUCH on
my love ones ever.
a promise till i die.

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