its my life story

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03 December 2010 @ 10:10 PM

The only thing i can do now.
I feel so helpless, so hopeless.
tried my very best to hold my tears.
but this heart can lie no more.
it just rush down quickly then i expected.
hate myself. i hate crying infront of ppl.
i hate ppl start to sympathize on me.
i hate ppl to feel pity on me.
i just hate it.
but just now was too much.
ive been keeping this for So long.
okay,i might be exaggerated?
but, its like way before i even went to
melbourne. if only.........
if only is just two bloody words that defines
tht we cant do anything about smth tht
already happened but to learnt our mistakes
from that particular incident.
sis in law just called me asking if im okay,
if i know anything.
of cause i did. and even if im not okay,
what can she do?
so i just laugh it off and say im alright.
talking to her make me wna cry.
but after talking to 2nd bro's gf,
i feels way much better!
feel so ashame of myself crying to her.
but i cant help it.
thanks alot sister.
you made me feel awhole lot better! *hugs*
& thanks to the clique for the concern.
im alright! as you can see i can still
laugh righttt? hahahaha!
& i just hope & pray everything gna end quickly.
stay strong mom.
you know,your only daughter is always here
eventho im sucha pain in e ass at times.
but still, i love you no matter what.

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