its my life story

29 November 2009 @ 10:56 PM

1. I've come to realize that my hair:

is still not long enough when everyone said its already grow damn long -.-

2. I've come to realize that when I talk:

sometimes it dsnt make any sense. HAHA!

3. I've come to realize that all I really need:

is to study hard & make my parents proud of me. & to make sure

my loved ones is happy! :D

4. I've come to realize that I've lost:

alot of my hairbands & clips that resulted me to buy alot more of it & also

resulted me to get scolding from mom cause i buy alot & lost alot too. HEE.

5. I've come to realize that I hate it when:

people accuse me for things that i did not do at all. ^*@&#@!

6. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk:

must be someone put smth in my drinks! cause ill nvr drink lor! hahah! ^^

7. I've come to realize that money:

is the upmost important things that we people cannot live without.

8. I've come to realize that when I get old:

ill be a nurse adn continue to be a nurse until i die. tsk! :D

9. I've come to realize that I'll always be:

emotionally unstable when im lack of sleep and having period.

so ppl,TAKE NOTE! hahaha!

10. I've come to realize that I have a crush on:

my baby nephew! too cute already! HAHA! ^^

11. I've come to realize that the last time I cried was:

like last week wednesday? LOL!

12. I've come to realize that my cell phone:

is damn chio! haha! me love me hp very much! :D

13. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:

ill always check my hp to see any missed calls or msges! (:

14. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night, I:

will do some reading up. i will read novels. i need more novels! ):

15. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:

that stupid health assessment that made my life sucha hassle one! tsk!

16. I've come to realize that my life:

is full of ups and down. this is life! (:

17. I've come to realize that my favourite drink is:

plain water? haha!

18. I've come to realize that today I will:

be schooling! boooo! ):

19. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
be fb-ing. nyahahaha! :D

20. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will:

be schooling still. double boooo! ):

21. I've come to realize that I really want to:

study really hard!

22. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this is:

the one whom come across my blog & feels like posting this too!

23. I've come to realize that relationships are:

so troublesome! need committment and all! eeyeeer!

24. I've come to realize that love:

is a feeling that cannot be forced. it'll come naturally from the heart.

chey! *mcm paham* hahaha!

25. I've come to realize that food is:

becoming more expensive now a days! haha!

26: I've come to realize that this holiday:

will be a great one? i hope! class chalet babyyyy! :D

27. I've come to realize heartbreak is:

so heart wrecking and thank god ive yet to experience it!

& thats the reason ive been single for 18years,2months and 29days!

HAHAHAHAHA!

28.I've come to realize that my sister(s):

(sisinlaw) is the great sister that ill nvr find any better! plus not forgetting

2nd bro's girlf that InsyaAllah,she'll be my sister soon! MAKE SURE OKAY! :D

29. I've come to realize that crying:

is my bestfriend. it accompanies me to sleep sometimes.

sweet right! (:

30. I've come to realize that death:

will happen to everyone in this world.

31. I've come to realize that if I'm sick:

ill be like a dead corpse! haha!

32. I've come to realize that when I'm bored:

ill read novel. (:

lesson will only starts at 10 tmr & im going to sch early to ask sab for help
for the most irritating module of mine! yes,
health assessment! -.-
imagine laa! i need to study an extra mile for this module
and yet,its only pathetic 2 credits! who not angry i ask you?!
& Oh,ive been watching you closely everyday dude. no,im not a stalker.
im just one of your secret eye-candy 'fans'! haha! ^^
Goodnight! <3

Labels: My Mr Secret Eye-Candy. hee.

28 November 2009 @ 11:01 PM

im totally worn off. seriously.

went out alot of times tdy! & i think

ive lost at least a kg at most?! LOL!

Baby Iqraam is being sucha sweetheart!

made the whole family laugh non stop!

Okay,just imagine. he was like sitting back at his mom's

lap/body and when i wnted to snap his picture,

he straightaway sit up straight & open his eyes bigbig

and stared at my phone while i snap his picture!

damn cute i tell you! i laugh non stop!

& it dsnt stop there! he being so mentel that when he 'whine'

& when i taking his picture,he stop 'whining' and stare at

my phone! and stone there until he see no flash

and this continues like idk how many time!

HAHAHAHA!

damn cute i tell you!

until all of us there just Laugh out loud. i really mean it.

REALLY LOUD! hahahaha!

see! how much of this slightest things he do,can made all

of my day/the family day a great one.

How can i possible not love him more each day?

He is my Soul. Without him,i think,things will

not go smoothly for my family.

Only some know why. Life!

Aunty love you alot Muhd Shazad Iqraam.

Thanks for bringing those happiness back to the family

when your around.

Im sure,ill tell you that your the upmost important thing in

my life besides your grandparents when your mature enough

to understand my talking. haha! (:

iloveyou and ive always do.

Xoxo.

Labels: muhammad shazad iqraam, your always loved.

@ 12:52 AM

even hes crying,he still got the cheek to look at my phone when

im trying to take his picture! so,tell me,how can i not love him more

each day? haha! (:

& i guess it has been a long time since i upload some pictures of the

classmates. so,here we go! sorry for some of the low quality

pictures. as dumb me,i changed the camera

quality! *slapforehead* & some i zoomed in somemore!

haiyaaa! but still,enjoy! (:

& take note! pictures heavyyy! :D

thats all folks! (:

gtg now!

going out with baby Iqraam tmr with mom & dad

minus my bro & sis in law. cause both of them

are working! boooooooo! hahaha!

k,goodnight! bye! :D

Labels: pictures heavy.

26 November 2009 @ 12:17 AM

in a few hours time,its communication blablablabla
presentation! err. quite nervous? Oh well,of cause abit laa.
cause got role play whtt! & i very shy! hahaha! okay.
whatever. LOL! i just realise tht all my previous post
like very emo. ): haha. its okay. its part & parcel of my life.
wht to do. life is like this mah! LOL! Oh ya! earlier on just now
when im at sch library! nehneh aka daniel,webcammed with
me. damn idiot lorr. he damn hyper when one of my classmates
said hes cute! HAHAHAH! can see he shy lorr. dumbbbb!
its okay nehneh! one day go lunch with my classmates all i
invite you okay?! (YOU SHOULD KNOW WHAT I MEAN!)
HAHAHA! stupid. Okay,i shall not make you embarrassed you
even more! hahahaha! ^^ know what? i wna sleep but! im waiting
for my cafe world food to be cooked finish then i go sleep! if not
wasted leh! abit more only! thats why i blogged. hee.
Okay,gta check out my cafe world & sleep! tmr need to be in
sch by FREAKING 7AM! die lorrr! sure dieeee! sighhhh. ):
& thanks daddy for diedie wanting to send me to sch tmr. eventhough
you need to go back thru & fro to send mom then me then go back
home change vehicle then go work. that makes me love you even
more! u know it'll trouble you alot. but you dont mind. all you know
is my safety come first & no oth else. & thats make you special dad!
*hugstightly* Xoxo. i love you dad! alotttt! & of cause. my mom too!
Who will not love their parents right? Goodnight! (:

Labels: ilovemyparentswithmywholeheart. Xoxo.

25 November 2009 @ 9:13 PM

i will always run to my baby nephew when im
down or in a verge to breakdown.
But,hes no where near me now. he cannot stop me
from crying. hes at his grandma house at bedok.
how i wish i can just go over there to see him just
for a min. so that all my sorrowness will be gone
by then. he is my EVERYTHING.
even by looking at him,it'll left me all
smiling. trust me. i do.
& tdy. i just cant help it.
ive to cry it out.
cry it out damn loud.
i feel so lousy,so useless.
i dont know why people. let me emphasize this again,
P.E.O.P.L.E.
why cant they just bloody hell told oths off if they dont like
the oth's act or wht?
please,im not gullible enough for anyone to deceive
me that easily. i still do have the brain to think that if you
bloody hell trying to put that fake smile infront of me
when you know your forced to do it.
for what? yours just making yourself tired.
tired of smiling? HAH!
your sucha a drama queen. but still,you cant deceive me that easily.
Once again i tell you this,
DONT ACT AS IF YOU CARE ABOUT ME WHEN YOU DONT!
its not needed at all. (:
Ohh,i just cant wait to meet my babyboy this
friday! i miss him like hell.
yes,i really do. ):

Labels: imissmybabyboy. tsk.

24 November 2009 @ 10:23 PM

People cant switch problems.

As nobody knows how to solve their own,

But,they always know how to solve other's.

yes,this it exactly happening to me

right now.

maybe,im trying to solve ppl's problem way

too much when little do i realise that my problems

are all unsolved.

Or maybe i just cldnt care less abt myself.

and all i do is,to cares alot about the oths?

you might say,ive got no life?

But please,i do.

its just i hide all my emotions safely

within myself. i hate it once ppl start to be so

overly concerned about me.

I-REALLY-DO-HATE-IT-ALOT!

thats why. im good on hiding it.

i dont care if ppl said it will kills me slowly if i

continues to do this like forever.

because why?

all i do was to take a F good care of everyone's

feelings when no one understand mine.

thats why,i cldnt bother to care less if

they dont even do care about mine.

im tired! im tired of pleasing ppl all the way.

friends comes & go.

little do i know,

i was all alone.

without anyone.

except for myself.

no!

not even my family.

Labels: period.

23 November 2009 @ 8:35 PM

When you started to feel like giving up,

always remember how long it took

for you to hold on.

i will hold on it as long i can manage to.

i will not give up easily. no matter what it takes.

i will prove you wrong.

ill prove to you that im not as useless as you

think i am when im not.

just one thing that i need a help/favour from you.

is to trust me that i can do it. i can do it for

everyone. for myself. & of cause for you.

i will not dissapoint you even if you said ill do one day.

please,dont ever underestimate me.

cause,ill give up easily so soon.

& i mean it.

im off for bio! argh!

nth goes into my bloody head & tmr is the

test! FML man! FMLFMLFML! sigh. ):

Labels: on a verge of giving up. sigh.

22 November 2009 @ 1:10 AM

i seriously need some time management!
cause mine currently sucks without any! -.-
ive yet to get my health assessment assignment
done and havent finish studying for my
pathetic biologyyyy! F! sighhh.
why must i study to get a Diploma cert? why
cant i just work & easily earn a Diploma cert?
cause studying wsnt my forte. like totally! heh.
gna be dead if mom knows im saying this.
haha! ^^ had a short get away with the brother
and sis in law plus my babyboy. haha.
it was like raining heavily when we reach jb! -.-
and yet,i simply enjoy it. (: i also missed the fav
aunty! glad tht she was doing greatt! as she just lost
her late son back on july with an early age of
3months? yes,tht young. im sad cause i dint get to
see him even for the last time. only thru pictures!
sigh. ): its okay! if shes okay! im very happy for her. (:
Okay,i think i wna get my health assessment done first
then tmr proceed to my bio. chionggggg all the way.
i hope! if my mood dint stop me from being so lazy
and start to procrastinate again like foreverrrrr!
till then! and,I LOVE MY NEW HP! HAHAHA!
BE JEALOUS PPL! :P

Labels: biology is killing me slowlyyyyy.

20 November 2009 @ 11:44 PM

FINALLY I GOT MY NEW HP ALREADY!
YAYYYYYY! so happy! hahahah! :D

Labels: new hp babyyyy.

18 November 2009 @ 11:52 PM

Sometimes there are just some people

whom you can never get over with.

so,do you mean that im in love?

Labels: hmm.

@ 12:36 PM

I JUST WNA GIVE UP IN LIFE!
I FUCKING CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE!
PPL SAID,APPRECIATE OTHERS AND
PPL WILL APPRECIATE YOU! BUT,WHAT I GET IN
RETURN? OKAY,WHATEVER!
I NEED A BREAK,GOING TO PLAY GAME
NOW! *PISSED*

Labels: for what appreciating ppl if in return they nvr do.

17 November 2009 @ 11:32 PM

Omg! suddenly im so excited for class chaletttt!
the theme gna be on Hawaii,theres games,also,
Christmas exchange! we're not suppose to tell to
whom we're going to give the person the christmas
present! but,i think,i almost know already who give
who lorr! EXCEPT FOR ME & a few oths! God!
damn scaryyy! (only some know what i mean!)
haha! & the one whom im gna give the christmas
present/exchange is .......... cannot tell laaa! LOL!
and ive already know what to buy for him/her lorr!
heh. & i think tdy class like abit siao eh. lots of laughter
with the usual one and also unsual one.
lovelovelove my classmates lorr! always made my day! (:
before tht,i guess next week my schedule
super pack already laa. next week Bio test started
already & also,ICA presentation commence next week
till next year i suppose?! haiyaaaa. so stress! zzzzzz.
Okay,off for now. gta do alilbit of revision!
Goodnight! (:

Labels: chaletttt here we all comeeee.

@ 11:22 PM

So,tell me now,

AM I WORTH IT?!

Labels: more than words.

16 November 2009 @ 10:51 PM

please tell me why i cannot

forget about you till today?

give me a thousand reasons if possible.

& i hate you for this.

LOL!

*do you know you that you've always made my day?

& i hate you for that too also! hmpft!

Labels: infatuation.

@ 8:39 PM

As you will laa mother. As you wish okay!
When it comes to me,all wrong. comes to your
son,all correct! wtf are you thinking mom?!
you can bloody tell your little son that he can
be alittle bloody patient cant he?! he borrowed
my old hp without my FCUKING permission,
when i get to know he do,he gave me his FCUKING
attitude. Oh well,im older then him,so,i must not
be childish and ALWAYS give him to him?
FCUKING no way man. hes too much. why cant
u see tht mom? he step over your head already &
you can still keep quiet,doing nothing? yes,i know,
you nags at him. BUT,do you think it works?
sorry,it dsnt! wahlaoo! damn fckking angry laaa!
can i just dissapear from thim world so tht ppl
will not give me any trouble?! ARGHHHHH!
fcuking hate you ppl! hatehatehatehate! :/

Labels: fucking irritatinggggggg.

15 November 2009 @ 5:01 PM

i really do think i procrastinate alotttttt!
Bio test is like in a weeks time? and ive
yet to study for it! maybe its all abt mcqs
thts why i take it easy,simple. but,if i Ace
on this mcq part,it'll be easy for me to get
my targeted marks! *slapforehead*
no,im not lazy. But,alot of things to do &
idk whr to start what first. and ended up,ill
just forgot about everything and ill sure do
a last minute thing. & now,my stupid tube
for the stitches for lab lesson are no where to
be seen! FTW MAN! -.-''' im so stresss. where
can i F get those things! its impossible for me to
asked from that yong lorr. sure kena screw up
one! stress alert! *breathe in breathe out*
& problems are like never ending! WTF LAA!
im off for now.
takecare!

Labels: streesssssssssssssssssss.

@ 2:51 AM

HOW MUCH OF THE HYPOCRACY CAN YOU
BLOODY BE?!?!?!?!?!

AND STILL,THIS LITTLE FEELINGS OF MINE

STILL WONDERING IF I CAN STILL TRUST YOU

THE FULLEST OR NOT. IT'LL NEVER BE

EASY MY FRIEND.

NEVER.

Labels: thanks alot for being one. Fcuk.

@ 12:40 AM

CONTINUE TO TARNISH MY NAME TO EVERYONE.
ITS A PLEASURE TO KNOW YOU CAN DO IT WELL.
REALLY WELL. & I SHOULD CONGRATULATE YOU
FOR DOING IT WELL TOO.

& INCASE IF I HAVENT SAID THIS TO YOU,
FRIENDS COME & GO. I DONT MIND AT ALL IF YOU
ALSO GO AFTER YOU DID ALL THIS SHIT TO ME.
IVE GOT ENOUGH OF THIS SINCE LIKE FOREVER?
KARMA. I ALWAYS BELIEVE IN KARMA. YOU DID THIS
TO ME,AND BLOODY HELL ACCEPT IT IF THIS HAPPEN
TO YOU BACK. THANKS. THANKS ALOT FRIEND!

Labels: im not going to give in this time round. Fcuker.

14 November 2009 @ 12:34 AM

People fear death more than pain.

But,to think about it back,

Life hurts a whole lot more than death.

At the point of death,the pain is all over.

So,can i just die now so that all those

pain that im experiencing now over?

Labels: things will nvr be easy.

11 November 2009 @ 10:22 PM

OMG! ATLAST DUANE ARE OUT!

LIKE FINALLYYYYYY?! -.-

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

NEXT,CHARLES OKAY? (:

Oh boyyy,are you trying to hint me somethinggg?

whats that for at fb you've just sent me just now?

whats your status are all about? i somehow

strongly believe it connects to each oth. but,somehow

my heart said its not. for sure,you've made my heart

pumps faster without me knowing. and thus,

made my day today. haha. <3>

Labels: you made my day for sure.

10 November 2009 @ 8:21 PM

*australiaaaaaaa.(:

*london eyeeee! :D

*LONDONNNN BABYYYYY! :D

YES! WONDERING WHY I POSTED THIS PICTURE?!

reason being,

IM GOING TO LONDON BABYYYYYY! :D

Omggggg! im like so F excited like helllllll!

hahah!

im going with the school.

its so call like an exchange programme?

smth likedat lorr.

and going thr for a week.

will be on march!

im so excited! & this goes to my oth classmates too!

haha! gta save up some money now already

going to go for 4 months diet! hahah!

around sept/oct next year,im going to austaliaa!

Oh myyy! im damn excited like hell already!

this time round for two weeks & for holidays!

so nice horr.

cannot wait!

wahhh!

Okay,girls,lets save up from now on!

& once we go to london,we can shop till we drop!

haha!

takecare! (:

Labels: im a happy kid.

@ 2:00 AM

just finish hearing Misteri Jam 12.
FREAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!
tdy was like scaryyyyy?! wth! i freak out leh!
Oh my God! haha. but still,not so scared laa.
cause it wasnt my first time listening to it though.
so,to kill my scary-ness,i shared it with one of my
friend at msn. he also hearing it too. so yerp.
i was like,keep asking,CAN YOU HEAR IT!
I CAN HEAR IT! OMG! HAHAHA! well,
at least,not tht scared what! haha! rather then i call
someone this midnight & cause trouble because
i disturb their beautiful sleep how?! hahah!

Ohhhhh,liverpool match going to start in 2hours time!
I WANT TO WATCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
damn it laaa. but,at 4 leh! im sure i already busy sleeping by
then. its okay. i think ill try to put alarm then if i can wake
up,i will. if not,then forget about it lorr. haha.
Okay,gtg now. yawing like non stop hit already.
& Oh ya! special thanks to kak mis for giving me those
heels. its okay. iloveit though. free heels mah! haha!
another one coming in tmr! -.- kak mis,better bring bigbig
beg eh! if not,ill kill you! haha! kay then,
Goodnight! (:

Labels: woooooooo. me likeee scaryyyy. lol.

09 November 2009 @ 11:53 PM

Okay,ignore my face. like drug addict likedat. i know!

haha! Okay,shuddup!

School is being sucha bitch!

seriously,im too tired. just from school alone.

when im home,once i lie down,ill simply doze off.

& mom will like nag at me saying shes more tired then i do.

hey mom,studying is not easy & will nvr be easy!

ive told you,put yourself in my shoes.

but,you wldnt care less right?

you'll still said tht if oths can,why i cant?

this is simply so,im not like the oths!

when i need your encouragement words,all i get was the opposite.

i know,maybe thts your way of motivating me.

but,its not working for me. totally not.
when im on the verge to give up,i consult you.

thr you blabbering abt things out of the topic.

so,how am i suppose to get those motivation?

from who?

eventhough my friends all has been encourage me

and nvr fail to motivate me on my studies,

the feeling will never be the same as

the own blood. get it?

im sick of all this.

when all those expectations are not being met,

its all me. im the one whom will be blame for.

so,i ask is this fair?

Life is Unfair.

whatever thing itis,iloveyou with all of my heart mom.

and dont ever doubt about it.

cause i really hate it if you do.

Labels: iloveyoumom.

08 November 2009 @ 11:02 PM

awww, adorable much this little one?

haha! see! he is like so clever likedat! take picture,look at the

camera! idk who teach him lorr!

and hes like barely going to 5months only!

I-M-A-G-I-N-E T-H-A-T! -.-

its okay though,istilllovehimforthewholeofmyheart,mylife.

chey,mcm paham! haha! <333

& as you can see! ystd was like really chaotic lorr.

webcammed with my aunt & uncle at aussie!

haha. damn kecoh laaa! as the earpiece tht

dearest lil bro gave to me so call spoilt,

they cannot hear us,but we can hear them clearly!

so clever kan! -.-

but still,the family,dint stop making me laugh.

ESPECIALLY DAD!

HAHAHAHHAH!

he is like so cute okayyy!

somemore with the earpiece he hold like one lost

reporter likedat! hahahah! <3

& YES!

ITS CONFIRM!

ME & FAMILY GOING TO AUSTRALIA NEXT YEAR!

WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

me so excited nowwwwwww!

hehe.

and baby iqraam is coming along also!

plus mom & dad too! how great!

cannot wait!

but too bad,lil bro cannot follow. as he going to sit

for his MONSTER O!

hahaha! its okay bro,we shall webcam for the whole

two weeks okayyy! & this also goes to 1st bro.

as his company sent him to continue to study?

he starting schooling next year.

but,i still hope he can make it though. (:

ohhhhhh,

cannot waitttttt!

& i got this tots of,

migrating to australia to further my studies & work there.

somemore my aunt and uncle thr. so,it'll be no prob with me.

i heard my aunt or i-forgot-who said,

the pay there is freaking high!

like,10k per month?!

10k leh! sg only 1.8k?

who dont want i ask youuuu?! hah!

but,the thing is,

ill be HOMESICK FOR SURE! ):
but,well. let faith bring me to the correct pathway.

hahah! okay,betolbetol mcm paham.

k,gtg!

ive yet to get my assignment done!

*dieeeeeee*

goodbye! (:

Labels: cannot wait to go aussie. hee.