its my life story

FUCKING HATE YOU TO THE MAXIMUM!

30 September 2009 @ 12:22 PM

ive never felt this depressed before. & i feel like my head

is going to explode anytime soon! like seriously.

i just cldnt help it,but just to cry it out loud. whats more can

i do better then that?!?!

im sick & tired of all this. this will never ever end. like,

NEVER! but,what can i do? im not the God whom can change

anything or everthing i like or i wish.

Okay,i need to stop here right now. cant help it.

lebeh byk aku type makin menjadi-jadi pulak air mutiaraku

jatuh ke pipi. haha. kk,im off for now. bye! (:

& IM IN NEED OF LAUGHING PILLS RIGHT NOW!

Labels: sick and tired.

again,im not catty from anugerah.

24 September 2009 @ 11:18 PM

Okayyyy,raya-ing time! LOL!

& 2nd day of raya got this one funny & thus cute incident.
Okay,i was at my mom's cousin house at geylang. & when
we arrived there,theres a family went visiting my aunt's house too.
& my aunt asked me to helped her to serve drinks them plus
my family too. as i am pretty much close with her &
she also quite old already,i helped her. then suddenly,
this aunty,the one whom also came visiting my aunty
asked my aunty if im the 'anugerah' kid anot. yeah,
catty. hahah. i tell u,my mom looked at me & i looked at
her & we laugh out loud! no wonder she was looking at me like
nobody business. hahahah! damn cute i tell you! & it happen
again for the next family who came in for visiting.
still,same response. damn paiseh okay! if they really tot
im catty from anugerah,it'll not be nice. cause,if i do smth
bad or what & if ppl really tot im her,will give her a bad reputation
which really,a pity okay. & i dont like it also. no nice right okay!

Whateverthing itis,enjoy this pictures! ((:

the rest you can find it at facebook.

thats all folks. pictures speak a thousand words.

so,yerp. gtg now! k,bye! :D

Labels: hariraya-ing.

damn happy lorr.

23 September 2009 @ 2:12 PM

YYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

tdy was the release of sem 1 exams result.
wahhh,i tell,alot of ppl online early in the morning.
damn cute laa. & everyone was like asking,
'hows your result' den pass,all status at fb
changed to happy mode. haha. (:

& by looking how excited & happy i am right now,
you can predict. that i actually PASSSSSSSSSSSS
all my modules! phew!~ eventhough i know that
my gpa cmi,but still,i PASS everything. which ive
be aiming for laa. cause i know i nvr study well
for all the modules & some even in the very last
minute. heh.

some shocking grades i got was coming from
BIOLOGY,FON & PSYCHOLOGY!
it was so unbelievable. trust me. cause this
three subjects is a killer subjects. which i tot
ill fail all this three at one go. but,i was wrong.
hehe. okayokay. pass can already right?!
so,i gna chiong very the hard for next sem. cannot
playplay already. cannot sleep also. :(
hahahaha!

okay,im off for now. going jalan raya.
heh. bubyeeeeee! (:

Labels: yay yay. passpass. hee.

Fucking angry.

@ 2:14 AM

i just cldnt contain my anger anymore.
i just feel like bursting right now. but,ive
always rmbr what my dearest aunt said,
'org klau buat kite jahat,kite balas dgn baik.
nnt Allah akan membalas kesemua perbuatannye
yang telah die perbuat kepade org lain'

& to tell u the truth,im not over those things yet.
it still lingers in my mind. WORDS are just WORDS.
you say it but you NEVER mean it. hah. pretty
much of the contradiction? perhaps! i guess,
its really time for me to preoccupy myself with
lots and lots of more bende yg lebeh bermakne.
fikir kan pasal ni semue,syaitan. tak bagos.
haha. org yg buat aku gini pon tk kurang nye jgk.
hee. Ops,next year masih raye kan? nnt aku
mintak maaf laa. barang sesiape yg tersedak
ke ape,no offence. heh.

kda,bye! :D

Labels: at least, im better off without you.

i just missed this so much.

@ 1:52 AM

Attachments pictures are up! (:
next will be Hari Raya pictures. Stay tune okay! (:

& tell you this,i really missed this alot.

a very goodgood experience indeed.

& obviously,ill not & never forget this,ever. <333

Labels: missed.

just the same old oth years.

20 September 2009 @ 2:47 PM

its been sometimes since i blogged.
well,attachment are already over! & to tell you
the truth,i really miss it. the laugther,jokes,smiles
and everything you can get at TTSH. those patients
are just so lovable. some even cried when they can
discharged. & until i also joined her crying. so sad
okay! LOL. alot of pictures taken. & ill uploas it ASAP.
as soon i have the time,ill seize it okay! hee.

& today,marks the first day of Hari Raya.
so,i'd love to take this opportunity to wish all of you
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN!
if theres any wrongdoings or badsay coming out from me to
anyone of you,please,do forgive me yeah. (:
whateverthing itis,eat all your lungs out until you can feel
your stomach going to burst or bursting. LOL.
That's all folks! mom is calling! k,bye! :D

Labels: selamat hari raya. =D

WTF ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY NOW?!

17 September 2009 @ 11:40 AM

I HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR HYPOCRACY & BULLSHIT.
& YOU DONT F. BLAME ME
IF I CHANGE FROM BAD TO WORST!

& DONT EVEN BOTHER TO ASK WHY!
ASK YOURSELF WHY FIRST.

~~& you can never lie to me. cause~~
ive got alot of friends whom are just
not less better then you. you bitch with
me regarding her this and that. with the
oth side,you bitch abt me this and that.
Oh,which ever culprit will ever admit their
mistakes pardon me? HAH! PLEASE!
ILL NEVER APOLOGIZE IF IM INNOCENT.
& YOU WILL NEVER APOLOGIZE CAUSE OF
YOUR EGOISTIC. JUST FUCK OFF PLEASE.

Labels: BEST EVER JOKE EVER.

if u said im a ignorant,looks whos talking?

15 September 2009 @ 7:35 PM

& who said that im very happy like it seems i am
right now? sometimes i couldnt hold my
emotional well. i tends to let it go to someone
else whom is wayyyy much innocent then to
whom who had been making me angry.
i really feel bad. but on the other side,i do
not wish to admit that i am emotionally
breakdown inside. deepdeep down there.
to whom who actually really got disturbed
by my sudden change towards you,please,i
hope you can understnd me. even you dont,
just try to yeah. ha.

alot of things i wna speak up but what i
do was to keep everything all by myself.
& i will always said,'ill speak up when the
time is right.' but,it will never happen.
& that is when it resulted me to go haywire.
hah. & trust me,nowadays i forced myself
to be my myself. & i hate it so much.
but,what can i really do?

ive always remind myself that
'everything happens,happens for a reason.'
when eventhough i know some of the reasons
are just too ridiculous to be accepted.

ps ; be strong mom. cause i know you are.
always rmbr that ive always love you.

Labels: ultra sad. and no one knows why.

patient is virtue.

13 September 2009 @ 3:31 AM

time checked,3.39am. still not in bed cause i cannot
sleep. sian lorr. attachment is hella fun. but not
totally fun all the way laa. theres always shit happens
in every happiness. right anot? haha. & anw,ive got
smth to show you all. & DONT LAUGH OKAY!
i know,when i said this,you all sure laugh one upon
seeing those pic i going to show u all. but please,
mind my feeling okay?! HAHAHHA! okay,crap.
i dont mind. just give me ur sincere comment & ill
appreciate it just that much.
&& ARE YOU READY KIDS?!
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TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

HAHAHAHHA! BUROK TO THE MAXKAN AKU NIE?!
& one of my friends actually tag me this picture & theres
alot more at FACEBOOK! believe me anot. FACEBOOK!
wth! wahhh. i tell you. i want to hide my face now already.
damn ugly can? eventhough now,still ugly. last time UGLIER
can?! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i see this picture
idk if i shud laugh or i shud cry. cause,it was funny & it is so
damn embarrassing laaa! hahaha. okayyyyyy!

&& THIS ONE,comparison. left when i was 14. durh.
& right,when im now! 18. big diff?! -.-'' even some of my
friends cldnt recognise me in black one laa! so poor thing!
& even yihui make fun of my hair! danm you ah! hahahah!
i want to see you cancer sec 1 face! & we shall laugh to each
othr! & thts when i call FAIR okay! hahhaha! :D

&& thats all folks! end here. & im sure by now,you
guys are laughing non stop hit. but,its okay. in life,
we have to go thru all this. transform here & thr you
know! & i shall name it as,transformer vs 5!
HAHAHAHAH! laugh laa okay! laugh! i curse you
got stomach cramp for one week! nyahahahha!

takecare lovely. (:

Labels: the transformer 5. lol.

by all means,its never been this easy. sigh!

09 September 2009 @ 11:22 AM

you once told me that no matter what happen,
you will always be there for me? then,why must
you give up this easy? why must you make me
give up? why cant you think of any other ways
to solve this problem of ours? my heart really
crash down when you said those words. i love you
so much. i know how much you sacrifice for us.
but still? sigh. (if all of you think im typing all this
in a very weird manner or smth,actually its not.
dont know,ask me. dont anyhow guess. ty.)

& for now,i dont think 090909 is the special day
indeed. and to you lady,make me pissed off tdy,ill
promise you that ill turn into an increadible hulk!
try me? by all means. thanks you. (:

Labels: do not disturb. thank you.

melikeyouevenmore.

08 September 2009 @ 2:33 AM

tag repliessss. (((:

kak reena ; ewahhhhh! ni makcik eh! sepak jgk uh! krg
tak kacau nurse shahida tak boleh eh?! HAHAHAHA! :P
brownie nnt i buat kan u laa kay. i do smpi u cannot
eat uh! amcm? okay takkk? hahah! XD

nina ; hello awak! ape nieee ckp gini! kite tak suke tau!
hmpfttt. hahhaa! eh! i nvr wask okay! i only tgk drg lap
drg nye buttocks! & trust me,once you see,no more
the 'eeeeeeeeee' feelings. HAHAHA! awwwwwwww,
imissyou even more sweetheartt! we shall mee soonnnnn!
pape text kayy! loveyou! *hughug*

Diy ; HELLO! :D how you came across my blog? hahah!
link me horr! cause im linking you gorgeous. (:

kak yanie ; eheh! ni lagi satu makcik nie! tak abes2 nk
kacau jek uh! haha. ahhhh! nk beli gi laa beli. nnt abg
saye ckp awak tu tebiat! takde keje lain! &&&&&&&&
awak tu belom lagi pass yer! nnt org suroh inject
tangan,awak inject kepale abg saye mcm mane?!
belajar dari yg pakar okay? HAHAHAH! *peace* :P

Labels: the replies.

melikeyou. (:

@ 2:04 AM

& i ultra miss this babyboy like mad! :'(

idk if i wna go down to bedok to see him anot.

cause i know,by then,im totally worn off. but still,

i miss him like nobody business! :( i miss his

smile,i miss his cry,i miss his burping,i miss his

farting,i miss his dimple,i miss everything abt him.

i bet,he missed me too! (okay,ni part saye perasan

sikit. eh! saye jage die 2 bulan tau! mesti die rindu saye

punye laa! kan iqraam? HAHAHA!)

&& OH! thrs one patient of mine passed away just

now! seriously,eventhough i just takecare of her

just for a day,still,im the one whom look after her

right? & her husband asked me,

Him : "she go already right? i think she go already."

Me : "relax okay uncle." :(

whats more you expect me to tell him? cause,

i think his friend or brother or whomever

hugged him & he cried aloud! & this seriously

touches my heart. & as we were taught not

to cry infront of the patient & their family,

eventhough its like so damn sad like cannot

help it likedat one,still cannot cry! see! we

nurses also must control our emotional okay!

not easy know! hahaha! & another not great

thing also,I NEED TO REDO MY CASE STUDY!
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

& this have been the 3rd time i change?

& if the next patient still the same,i tell you,

i GIVE UP! hmpftttt.

so long! (:

Labels: its not easy.

i think i fall for you AGAIN!

06 September 2009 @ 9:00 PM

your smile is a killer. (:

Labels: a very much indeed.

imissbabyiqraam! :(

05 September 2009 @ 1:36 PM

im back! haha. arttachment is so tiring! yes! very.

but,im not ranting abt it. instead,im quite happy

being attach at ttsh. the people thr very nice.

the patients also. but what makes me feel alil bit

insecure when fad said,'let see if all of them are

true to you anot' but,so far. i think okay laa.

ystd was so damn funny laa. ill not eleborate much

here. damn funny i tell you. from one inccident to

another incident. hahaha!

oklaa,gtg for now. dont know wht to say already.

takecare for now! & oh,i miss baby iqraam! :(

Labels: not bad affterall.

damn tired! :(

01 September 2009 @ 10:16 PM

Okay,if u guys are curious,thats when im doing

right now! having 3weeks attachment! firstt two

days wsnt so great. i hope tmr does! *crossfingers*

& tell u,its like freaking tiring! veryyyy! its like,if

u got nth to do at all,u still have to like stand & mingle

ard with the patient. wah piang. damn tired! seriously!

& all my patients,their conditions really touches my

heart. so sad okay! :( whateverthing isit,i need to

go off now. tmr need to report by 7! (!!!!!!!!)

& obviously i need to get asleep right now. & i

might not be blogging for this two weeks until

attachment are over. so,takecare okay!

will be back soon!

Xoxo.

Labels: out for attachment