its my life story

baby nephew! ((:

29 June 2009 @ 11:15 PM

yes,as stated,his name is,muhammad shahzad iqram! the name that ive suggested before! ((: yipeee! ppl gns call him shahzad. BUT! i gna call him iqram instead. im very honoured lykdat u see. hees. i feel so damn relieve that ive got to touch him and kiss him but unfortunately,i cant carry him! cause of shortage of time laaa! sighhhh. BUT,its okay. at least,i got to kiss him though. heh! cant wait for wednesday! yeahyeah! :D im sure my house will be so noisy lorr. hehs!

on the sidetrack,thrs one funny incident happened just now at the hosp. as u guys know,im not that close or not even know my sisinlaw's cousin and stuff. so yerp,they came down just now too. & tht is also the time i mingle ard with them. before i start mingling,this girl & boy kept staring at me. i thought,its norm laa. so,blablabla,i went up to them,to pass smth & the girl,said,'u at reallife & at tv different eh!' seriously,i dint catch any balls at all! then my sisinlaw's sis said,catty,catty. then,i knew it laa. i laugh. she continued again,i voted for u but i cant cause im using perpaid. -.-' this part,i laugh like hell already! hahahah! then i said laa,im not catty and stuff. den the boy said,u the catty from anugerah right? he keep repeating. hahaha! den i said again,den both of them,PAISEH LAAA! abohden! hahahah! damn cute lorr. & she claimed to my sisinlaw's sister that she wnted my autograph & wna take pic with me. zzzzz. but,to bad. im not that CATTY from ANUGERAH okayy! hahhaha! damn funny laa. until my first bro jealous ah! he said,how come i can be more popular then he is! idiot! hahahaha!

they actually made my day today u see. haha. damn cute. heh. i guess i going back to the hosp tmr again! hopefully nisa can make i laaa. & please,make it okay! hahaha! XD

till then,goodnight! (:

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baby nephew!

@ 12:41 AM

ANNOUNCEMENT ANNOUNCEMENT ANNOUNCEMENT!

NOW,I GOING TO DECLARE THAT IM OFFCIALLY BECOME A AUNTY!~ YAYYYYYYYYYY! :D
omgomgomg! words could not and never describe how f***ing happy i am just now when first bro break the news to me that sisinlaw has already delivered her son! omg! & coincidently,i was with nina darl just now. shes the first i told that ive become a aunty. then i sms aizan,nurul & aisyah. i called nisa & kak yanie. then me and nina met zahidah,izyan,malah & tyrah & i straightaway told them off! hahaha! im so damn happy laa okay! so,i wnted to share my joy! heh! i just cant believe that ive already become a aunty,iwan & abg epul become uncle! time flies reallyreally fast! i feel like crying! yes,crying! im too happy. i just cant express how happy i am! ive never been this happy before. NEVER in my entire whole life! what i was pretty sad about is that,ive got no chance to see my baby nephew! :( i wna go to KKH tmr but first bro said dont need cause sisinlaw will be back home in few days time,but,i REALLY wna go and see! :( its okay shahida,they'll be staying at ur house abt two months,so u can see ur baby nephew EVERYDAY! :D && im sure u ppl wna know whats baby nephew's name right? well,idk know, but,i was said that first bro is considering to use the name that ive suggested to them. i wldnt reveal his name now. but,after first bro and sisinlaw has already discuss,ill for sure tell u guys alright? heh heh. && so,friends whom asked me out during this week,i guess ive got to make a miss! im so sorry! but,ill promise that ill for sure make it up ASAP! to faziella esp! im terribly sorry! ill promise u thr'll be an outing one day! wait okay? cause i need to accompany my sisinlaw at home cause mom is out working & no one is at home. so yeah. heh. im so excited! FINALLY,dad become grandpa,mom become grandma,sisinlaw become mom,first bro become dad,second bro and iwan become uncle & myself aunty! Alhamdullilah. im sure with baby nephew around,my family bond will become more & more closer. finally,ilovemyfamilysomuch. words just cant describe how much i love you ppl. & obviously im not forgetting kak yanie too! loveyoutoo kak! & now,what i gna do is to wait for baby nephew to come home! xoxo.

ps ; to those whom actually said congrats to me thru msn & facebook cause ive already become a aunty,thank you! you all know how happy & excited i am? hehe. (da mcm aku yg bersalin! hahaha!)

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imisskakyanie! :(

27 June 2009 @ 11:32 PM

sis in law is in hosp right now! i wna go and visit her but she dosent allow me to! she said only first bro can accompany her. so sianxzx! zzzz. i hope she'll be just alright! especially the baby! :( seriously,ive got alot to blog! but,im just plain lazy! hahah! ystd webcam with kak yanie! haha! imissher like nobody business laa okay! she said im the first whom she webcam with! so sweet eh! hehe. <3333>
chat with aizan just now! yeah,everyday nak katekan chat ngan die! hahah! but this one,serious chat punye! hahaha! only bestfriends jek tau eh aizan? hahaha! get it clear eh aizan! get to know u do that again,aku ketok kepale kau smpi kau jadi gile punye! hahah! && seriously,was so shock bile aku dpt tau tentang. erm. erm. hahaha! okay,ill shut my mouth! k,gtg now. i got to finish up my essay right now! so rachel for the delay! the book will be at ur hand by today! hees!

goodnight!
oh! goodmorning actually! heh!

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oh,you rock! <3

24 June 2009 @ 9:41 PM

i seriously think im having an acute insomnia. wah! mentang-mentang nurse! pkai sume word nurse eh! hahah! k,whatever. k,back to what i was saying,yeah,insomnia. cause,this past few days i can only sleep when the clock strikes 5bloody AM! ergh! how irritating can it be? tell me! e latest i slept was at 6 am! & was forced hard to be up by 11AM! tsktsk! but on the flip side,went out with this two gedegak ; fad & ama!!!!! hahahah! One word can discribe everything. KECOH! hahah! yok klua lagi! hahah! :P enjoy the pics taken laa horr. ((:

muke kau ama,tak perluuu! hahahah!

rock baby rock! -.- hahah!

fad thought its cute. -.- i more cuter ah fad! HAHAHA!

ooVoo timeee! :D

three at one go.

when fad's face go distorted! HAHAHAH! see ama's & my tounge! hahaha!

&& fad DISSAPEAR JUST LIKE DAT! hahahha!

i seriously had fun ystd lorr! laugh non stop hit! haha! thrs more to go bsk yer fad! hahaha! tak puas ber gossip gossep dgn kamu! hahaah! gossep yer! hahaha! & YAYYYYYY! ONE MORE WEEK OF SCHOOL HOLIDAYS! but not for my essay! :( but,luckily im half way done laa. 1000words babe! 1000words! & im left with 550mores more. get the books by tmr,im all done! phew!~ i guess,im off for now. ill blog again soon! goodnight! (:

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very agitated! hmph!

22 June 2009 @ 12:19 AM

was bored. & yes,camwhoring using my lappy! hahaha!

im super agitated today.idk why. maybe due to my period. a friend of mine chat with me just now. idk if its my wrong or his. but its like he super sensitive lorr! & maybe due to that,he added up my mood swing situation thingy even more worst! i explained why im like this. & thr he was blabberingabt his cruel and im not whateverthing. god! sick man! i simply just cant stand it laa. not trying to be rude or meant just now. & i just said up him,bye & click the red 'x' button! this is seriously sick man! urgh! whatever laa eh!

move on,i watched this movie ; coklat & stroberi. the story is so cute laaa! hahah. wnt to know why,see for yourselves okay? esp the ending. damn cute laa okay. and so the actor too! muahahahh! the movie seriously made my day! i manage to laugh okay! LOL! Okay,im off to another movie eventhough its 3.15 in the morning already! heh! ill be backkkkkk! nyahaha!

goodnight! =)

ps ; Oh,i think miss you.

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HAPPY FATHER"S DAY! :)

21 June 2009 @ 4:55 PM

first & foremost,i would love to wish this person up here,a very

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

Dear Beloved Dad,

ive never ever thought that your sucha wondeful dad that ive known until that day u spoke with me in privacy. i still do rmbr those words you told,those advise,those encouragement and everything you have ever did to me. especially those words. trust me dad,whenever i recall back those words you told me,ill nvr fail to be in tears. & im so greatful to have a very wonderful dad like you. you tried as best as you can to satisfied our family's need. mom's need,brother's need and especially my needs. until u dont evencare less about your own need. just to make us happy. & by making us happy,you'll be happy too. you work so hard for the family until you dont even care about your health-being. you still,carry on with your work. cause,you want the best for the family,you want to fulfill each and everyone of our needs in this house. you always put us as your first priority after you. too much things that i wnted to say dad,but i guess,let the rest of it i keep it to myself. just to let you know,iloveyouiloveuiloveyou&willneverstoploving dad. your the most wonderful dad that even if god have to separate us into different world,ill be more then ready to take that place of yours instead. i couldnt live without you,without mom too. you both are so special to me,so important to me. especially you dad. you taught me how important family is. how much sacrifaction can a family do to you. not even a friend could sacrifice as much as a family would to oneself. & lastly,before i end my talking,ive never regret having such dad like you,never regret having sucha great family. happy father's day once again dad & to every dad out there too. & friends,start treating your dad as best as you can if you havent. they are the one whom sacrifice alot in one's family. again dad,iloveyounomatterwhat. *BIGHUG*

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webcamwebcam!

@ 2:22 AM

hello lovely readers of mine!

now i know what i gna blog for tdy! hahaha. ive got ALOT to say but im lazy to say everything. i think i gna divide this post into two. which mean,i gna blog again later! heh! okay,firstly i would love & really love u all to take a PEAK at this pictures below before i proceed with my talking further. i say PEAK means PEAK okay! hahahha! dont laugh! pity fad laa okayy! HAHAHAHAH! :P click on the pictures for clearer view. ENJOY! :D

starting. everything is so serious. VERY SERIOUS! hahahahahah!

den it turns out we frown.

& we pout.

& we puff.

& suddenly we LAUGH! hahahha!

SUDDENLYYYYY! when both of our laptop get stuck,this happen! tsk!

LASTLY,when its time for us to bids GOODBYEEEEE!

SAW IT?! HAHAHHAAHAHA! i laugh non-stop when i look again at those pictures. seriously! see fad! i upload already! serve you right! hahahahah! she urge me to blog lorr. so,i pity her,i blog laa. so sweet right? i know! nyahahhaha! :P okay,what happen actually,fad & myself was webcaming last fewdays. & EVERY POSE you all saw over there,its not plan okay! i said again,not plan! i followed what fad was doing & thr,i snapsnap&snap! hahaha!

Okay,enough of that. earlier on,i go youtube & watch this indonesia movie. randit & jani. yeah,im so left behind. but,who cares right? hahah. i tell u,the movie is so awesome! its very sweet,touching,sad & everything! i cried at the end of the movie! really! hahah. u go and watch if u dont believe me. so touching lorr! actually before watching that,i watch drag me to hell AGAIN! haha. but,only one quarter. cause,i feel quite "shy" today to watch the movie alone. hahaha! ill watch it with lil bro tmr as i promise him ill let him watch at my lappy tmr. huahahah! time check,3.28am. but im not sleepy yet still! & ystd i woke up at freaking 3PM! haha. so,i guess,i better get going noe. go to sleep! heh.

Goodnight human!

ill come back again! :D

freaking lates.

20 June 2009 @ 4:48 AM

time check,4.48am. hahah. && im still awake. how great. i cannot sleep okay! i thought of blogging just now. but,was lazy. & did oth things instead. & when the oth things i did just now get bored,really bored,i run over here. which is,to blog! haha. been online since 9 just now. till now. if dad or mom catch me regarding this,sure die one. but,who cares. i never disturb anyone else in this house what. heh heh.

time flies indeed so fast. july is coming soon. & im becoming a aunty soon! so excited i tell u. at last i got someone to call me aunty shahida! instead of sister shahida. & oh,i feel so old! very old indeeeeeeeed. heh. *yawn* time check again,5.04am. hmm. i guess,its time for me to S.L.E.E.P! hahah! okay then,goodnight people. OH! GOODMORNING actuallly. hahah. =)

& before i go,i got smth to show u. some hotstuff which can simply make me go gaga over it. nyahahaha!

Okay,goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! ((;

hahhahahah! just take a peak of it okay! if not,u'll be having a terrible soreeyes tmr! *evillaugh* hahaha! byeeeeee! :P

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TAG REPLIES.

18 June 2009 @ 11:00 PM

TAG REPLIES! ~

Azwan ; 2wks left...
- whateverrrr! the more ur asking for it,the more ill not entertain u. so,buzz off. or,u will not get ur macd. ;)

♥ alice ; thankyou darling! yes i will definitely remember the love i have from you! thankyou! thanks for the 4messages, 2 when it strikes 12am and 2 before it ends + your call + your wall post. I really dont know what to say but BIG THANKYOU darling! you are superb
- hahah! no problem laa darling. its ur special day rmbr! so,i ought to make it very special for u okayyyy! heh! :D

zailyyy ; you're linked.(:
- haha! thanks so much pengguinnnn?! hahahha! :D

Nina ; Be strong babe! You can overcome this! Jiayou baby!
- thanks darl! ive did it already! heh heh. loveyou! *hughug* =)

zaniero ; laem kaw tk update.. haha.. letak la gmbr klasmates kaw ke ape.. haha..
- kau bute eh? kan aku da update! hahahah! ah,jgn macam2 gmbr classmate sume. blah laa luu! hahaha!

Daniel ; Haha... i now never liao le... I like the WONDERGIRLS!!
- you better dont! hahaha! eee,disgusting! u sounds so cheeky! hahhhahahha!

Athirah ; Awww, thats sweet. All the best in your studies yahh! I wish you all the best. i know you can do it.=)
- haha. thanks so much! =) you too yeah.

noreen ; wahaha, dh link seh anw i miss u too!! haha when atc having u arnd kecoh&gerek seh.. *cicak sound*
- hahaha! of courseee! got me whatt kan! nvr fail to make ppl smile. *coughcough* HAHAHAH! missyou laaa babe! hees. =)

*yaniee ; 21st June is Father's day... cepat collect duet dan blanje die makan. im sure he'll love it )
- no money no honey! hahaha. but,i planning to buy smth for him. smth he would love to get for himself. haha. =P

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ilovemedaddyyyy! :D

17 June 2009 @ 10:48 PM

this particular picture of him,is being set as my desktop background! scorching hotstufffffffffffffffffffff! hahahha! i just cant get my eyes from youuuuuu mayyynnnn! hahahahah! if by anychance u ppl dk who he is,he is the guy whom acted in this indonesia drama ; suci. & his name? for me to know,for u to find out. hahahah! okayokay!~ his name,rendy septino! hahahahh! yeah. his name is as hothothothothothot as the person is! hehehe. okay,stop it shahida.

& Oh helllllllllooooo babeyyyyyyyyyyyssss!

MY LAPPY IS WITH ME RIGHT NOWWWW! YAYYYYY! its like WOW! hahaha! at last okayy! heh! its been like ages since i wait for the arrival of my precious laptop. hahah! okay,exaggerating! only two months laa okay. but STILL! so long okay! heh heh. before hand,ive got alot to blog abt. but,i think maybe i was too excited. & ive forgotten what shud i blog abt! hahahhah! Oh yes,ive yet to finish up my 1000words essay. i dint expect that the qn turns out to be quite direct laa. thanks fadhilah for the help! so much appreciated. REMEMBER,ill treat u bubbletea. no tak lut laa ape laa eh! blang abg ______! AHHAHAHAH! :P so,tonight will be the night that i will have to do.. all those RJjjjjjjjj.. that have been lingering in my minddddddd. OKAY! CRAP! hahahah. gta run now. eventhough im lying down right now. hahahhahha! goodnight humanoid! loveyouppl. but i lovemydadmuchmore! *giggle*

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happy birthday!

@ 1:23 AM

first & foremost,i would like to wish my dearest darling alice a HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY. which falls on 16thjune09. called her,sang her bday song,wish her at facebook,msg both her phone,& msg again for a few last min before her big day end! i hope u enjoy ur day just now to e fullest okay darling? always rmbr i love you okay? hahahahah! :D && HAPPY 18TH TO HIDAYAH TOO! :) hers falls on 17thjune09! hees. i heard ur having ur class chalet later right? so,hope they'll make ur day a more memorable & wonderful one okay? heh.
Okay,move on,just now,went out with my only loves ; aisyah & nurul. plus nurul's mum! hahah. thanks aunty for the treat! ur e bomb! heh heh. fastforward,i suddenly came out with a plan,which is ; to watch a movie. its been sometimes since i watch movie okay! hahah. & we watched - drag me to hell. ill rate 9 out of 10 for that movie. was like screaming my lungs out. actually that sentence is more for aisyah. HAHAHA! i was laughing my ass off seeing how scared she was! she was like all the way covering her face or to be exact,her eyes with both of her hands for one reason, ; SCARED! HAHAHA! funny laa you aisyah! & i HAVE to control my scream cause,beside me,just sitting beside me,thrs this one chinese guy. hes hot & hes cute i tell u! HAHAHAH! but,too bad,the movie is so damn good that i cant help it but to shout/scream my lungs out & even,i was like jumping from my seats due to the shocking part. -____- i think that guy laughed at me. at least i got the 'scared' feelings rather then acting cool! hahaha. its okay. i close one eyes due to ur cuteness. HAHAHAH! & thrs one part,myself & him coincidently sit & pose our hand at e same position & at the same time. Like the oldies always said in malay,'klau da jodoh tak kemaneeeee!' hahahah! so,ppl,i recommend u this movie. go watch go watch! heh heh. i enjoy my day tdy man. was damn fun. with this two kids ard,ill nvr felt bored. they make me smile every min when im with them. serious,im not lying. hahah. i love u both okay! dont ever doubt it! hahah. Okay,im off for now. i think i wna bomb acer company sooner or later. they have yet to send me my laptop. its already a month due man! grr.

thanks for reading!

ps ; to you my dearest friend. im sure its been quite a tough time for u now. i can feel how u feel now. if u need anyone to talk to,just talk to me okay? Eventhough u show those ppl ur strong outside. i know u very well friend. ur weak inside. im a girl & i understand ur feelings so well. give me a call or text me whenever u need me okay? rmbr,ive always be thr for you. :)

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he is just so sweet. hees. :)

11 June 2009 @ 11:56 PM

phew! at last! ive sort things out with him. hah. i was super duper glad that he is so understanding. Even kak yanie,sabreena,jas,nina and pearlyn said he is so nice,so sweet. hahah. not like some oth kind of guys. hahs. & to you,i hope i can trust u okay. its btw u & me. hahah! & which i think its like btw him,me & my close friends lorr! heh heh. anw,thanks u all for the support eh? at last right. hahahahaha!
Okay,move on,ystd had campus run. Once again,im super duper sorry for what had happened ystd. next time dnt take me laa hah. im sucha disappointment. sigh. :( & ystd also,me,kak mis & sab shared what things that we actually wanted to shared for so long time ago. (i just wanted someone to say it out & yes,kak mis did it. heh!) sab,i seriously think we're still in the same class together cause theres some reason behind it. One of which,is this. dont worry laa kay,just forget abt the past. its so stupid of us quarrelling abt that. but,if we nvr quarrel,we'll never know our weaknessess right? so yerp,be thankful im still here,same class with u! HAHAHAH! :P im glad too that we've figure this things out btw us. straightforwardness is the best policy. hahs. just dont ever be a braggart. just dont. u'll never & can never go anywhere. trust me. brag abt being in soccer team den nearly get into national team. i seriously think all this are bullshit lorr. financially not stable & stuff? so stupid lorr. hahs. its okay my friend,try harder to brag abt urself okay? its fun to see u brag abt urself. u look so dumb. i loike. hees. :) & i keep laughing in lectures just now. kak mis laa! non stop making me laugh. HAHAH! minah half indo half malaysia eh kak mis? spore nye kene rejected?! tights nyonya?! HAHAHAH! damn funny i tell u. kak mis,ur e best laa seh! :D Oh yes! tmr thr'll be an outing for my class. idk if e whole class going. but,it seems half of the class going though. so yerp! Off to BOWLING babey! heh heh. i want to see how many longkang will ill be aiming tmr. HAHAHA! woah! cannot wait cannot wait! its been ages since i bowl. so,tmr will be e day! heh. Okay,i think im done for now. i know,my blog is so plain. ill try to upload some photos here. but not now laa okay. heh. Oh yes! saw hidayu just now! shes so gorgeous mayynn! natural beauty. thats the man! dari foundation bertepek ckp lawa buat ape kan? heh. & she said my face looks like catty from anugerah?! HAHAHAH! wth. i shall check it out next week! HAHAHAH! till here then,Goodnight humaniod! :)

ps ; i wonder,why people are so desperate to be in relationship nowadays? why dont they just go with the flow? my opinion,i am one of them whom is virgin in this BGR thingy. but,i think,just go with the flow will be better dont u think? seriously,people whom sounds super duper desperate of wanting to be attached,just pisses me off immediately. seriously. -_______-

Labels: stop being a braggart.

it was a nice dream. :)

08 June 2009 @ 10:52 PM

i dream of you. yes,you. i know,by any chance you'll not come across to my blog. but,idk why. the feelings just come & go. Once when im so ready to forget totally abt you,thr you are ard. you sms me. just letting me know that your presence still thr. you make me not to forget you. its been so long. very long. until some of my friends said to me to move on. kak yanie,sabreena said to follow my heart. im not desperate okay. if only you know how long ive been eyeing,into you. i think you'll shock. hahs. they asked me to tell you the truth. but i dont dare. i know who i am. i know my well-being. i dont want it to happen again. im scared. i dont know how to say it. i dont know if im truly ready. i dont know if after i said this once and for all,will you be like oth typical guys? the one whom will ignore girls after knowing the truth? i dont know. i dont know what i shud do. i dont know whats running in my mind right now. i just freaking dont know what must i do right now. sigh.

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YIPEEEEE! I PASSSSS! woohooooo!

04 June 2009 @ 11:22 PM

I FREAKING PASS MY CLINICAL ASSESSMENT TESTTTTTT! WOOHOOOOOOOOOO! :DDDDDD

i did screw up at the starting okay. damn bloody nervous laaa! grrr. haha! was trembling all the way! can ask sharon! shes my model. omg laaa. sigh. but,i pass though! YIPEEEE! very the happy! hahah! & tdy marks the good & bad day. wldnt say much abt both also. only the one knows,will knows. & u ppl who knows it,better shut ur mouth or i will not talk to u. hmph! :( hahah! i think im done here. daddy is calling meeee! need to off the comp cause he said tmr sch scared i cannot wake up! HAHAHAH! very cute laa daddy! loveyou laa okay! XOXO!

lovelove! (:

Labels: i hate the bad one. seriously hate it.

great time,great day.

01 June 2009 @ 10:46 PM

hey lovely readers.

yes,i know. its been half a month ive been missing in action. hahah. not that i dont want to update my blog. its either im just plain lazy or im just plain busy. so,choose which one u like. hahah. things been going so great/well to me this past few days. i pass my biology test! woohoo. i know,its not a big deal to anyone who takes/took bio. but,its a really big deal to me cause its a freaking first time i took bio & its like PURE BIOLOGY! so,imagine a noob girl like me no nothing about bio straight away studied PURE BIOLOGY. just figure it out how okay. LOL! so,im satisfied cause,i took my first bio test & i pass. Even its not an A or B,still,im proud of myself. & i know,i can improve & will improve. :) next was,my Critical Thinking presentation! which is,today! i guess my group did pretty well for e presentation. we got B. but,its a good achievement though for a first timer dont u think so? yes,i so gna agree with wad ive just said. HAHAHAH! well,we definitely still need to improve more. mainly on,the way how we answer & how we tackle each & every problem/scenario given. up next is Foundation Of Nursing presentation! On wednesday! sigh. im so scared that ill dry of words when ms angela bombered me with alot of 'chime' questions. Of which,i can tell,some questions are just been made to just test ur bloody patience. hahaha! i hope my group will abstain a B again or better an A. hahaha. we will try though. nothing is impossible right? hahah! Oh yes! my room is now full of babies stuff! i feel like im e pregnant lady now not sis in law. HAHAHA! Oh my! im so excited to become an aunty! i told first brother that my nephew will looks cute like me! & his reaction? "TOUCH WOOD AH! i dont want my child to have same nose as u! Onion nose! *he laugh out loud*" wah,got such brother in this world one ah? HAHAHAH! & what i said back to him? "my nose symbolize me. thats make me unique & cute!" & he make this face ----> -_____-''' HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! first brother really funny. i hope my nephew will be as cute as his only aunty shahida! YAY! HAHAHAHA! & guess what. my first nephew,first brother gna use the name ive suggested! YAYness! im proud of it okay! dont tell me u all dont! hahaha. alright. i shall stop here alright. & i have yet to receive my laptop. asshole! grr! its okay. ill prolly receive within this or next week. i REALLY HOPE ah! LOL! Okay,im off now. takecare & keep tagging even more. cause i wnt to know who reads my going to die,NOT blog! & i also wnt to know my daily readers. aww! hahahah!

thanks for reading!
goodnight. :)

PS ; i might be seen very happy outside. but definitely not inside. today,for the most entire life of mine,im super duper sad,super duper down. & dad,the one whom witness me crying. witness me saying my thought all out. witness everything. the more he talk,advise me,the more tears rolling down. (yes,it still does now.) dad makes me feel im still worth it. when i were to think back what dad said just now again,i think,ill cry to sleep tonight. he said this ; "dad loves u more then ur brothers. ur my only daughter. ups & down,we are together & will always be together. if u dont feel satisfied in anything or everything,tell me. talk to me. ive always be thr for u. & will always be thr for u. u must know that i love u & always love u." Oh my. dad,ur sucha great dad that i dont think i can find another type of dad like u anywhere,elsewhere. u never fails to advise me. u never fails to encourage me. u never fails to congratulate me in everything i do. tell me friends,what will u feel if ur dad really say this to u? for me,obviously,im happy until i cry. hahs. cause i know,dad loves me & wants the best in everything i do. dad,ive always love u more then i love myself. me,as the only daughter of urs,ill try my best to make u proud in everything i do. ill make u proud having me as ur daughter. ILOVEYOU DAD. & I WILL NEVER FAIL TO LOVE YOU. until death apart us,ill never ever forget to love u. :') <333333333333333333

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