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ilovemyfamilymorethenmyself. <33333

10 May 2009 @ 3:32 PM

it seriously amazes me how much first bro has change. Alhamdullilah. i guess i prefer him much more now from then. he makes me feel good. i guess one of the reason is also because of him becoming a dad soon. i feel much comfortable being with him ard. anything i wud want to tell him/or shared with him,he will nvr fail to become my listening ears eventhough i know he got his own prob/responsibility he has to settle first. in short,ive nvr regret having a great brother like him. i used to hate him so much. but,when i knew him closer this past months,he made me realise that i actually has a great brother. a brother whom i can rely my probs on.
on the oth hand,my sisinlaw. she also had given me alot of advices. she makes me regain my confidence evenmore. without both of them,idk to whom can i actually talk or complain abt my day/friends/aunty/uncle in short everything.
first bro ask me to talk to dad. and now,ive got no difficulties to talk to dad. dad also has given me alot of advices whom which i can just shed my tears upon realising how care,how concern he is towards me,his only daughter. ive nvr failed to cried or felt touch whenever dad advices me on what and whatnot.this kind soul had made me come to realise that ive nvr be/will nvr be alone.
even without my friends ard with me. trust me. i can just live with them ard. but,i know its impossible. they have their own responsibility. its not i hated all my friends or what. but,i hate it when it comes to e misunderstnding/backstabbing/jealousy or whatever shit that can happen in friendship.i know,we must gone thru all this in order to make the friendship goes stronger. but,well,ill just keep those comment to myself.
as for mom,shes e best ever mom ive known. ppl can say whatever shit abt my mom but i know whts the best she has done for me. she might be an egoistic person ever. but,shes a loving mom. her smile,her laughter is the only one whom can make my day a wonderful one. cause i know ive made my mom smile and laugh.and i wldnt even can imagine how can i not live without her ard.
as for second brother,he may be a good brother. but,e way he treats me,i despise it strongly. i know,he hated me much as well. but whateverthing isit bro,ur still e one whom i thank god for. evernthough we're not close and we always has misunderstnding,i still love you just e way you are.
lastly,little bro. ur e only little bro i had. eventhough e parental attention wsnt totally focus to u,u must know that ive always been loving u and always wanted e best for u. i dnt mind spending my money for u cause i know u wldnt upset me instead,u make me proud by having a wonderful brother like u. study hard dear brother. ur e only hope for our family to get better grades then me. and im sure u can do it.
not forgetting,kak yanie whom have also played a part advising me on this and that. she makes me realise how much my family actually loves me,care for me. thanks for everything. u've change me into a much better person. eventhough idk what happen to us,ill nvr forget u. i guess ive disturb u much. hahs. and ill make sure ill not from now onwards alright. loveyoutoo.

overall,ive told myself nvr regret knowing someone whom u had knew before. cause,alittle or more,they did change u to become a better person. to whomever had enter to my life before and also leave from my life,i wud like to thank you all for everything. each one of u has ur own specialities. and to which i dint regret knowing u ppl at all. but time changes. and indeed everyone change. i just hope e best for ur new environment and ill never ever forget all ur deeds towards me.

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